Disciple Now- True Love Waits

I thought I wasn't going to D-Now, but I got to go. We went to Jacksonville (Orange Park). I had the privilege of teaching 7th grade girls. It was amazing to see God working in their lives. Through teaching them God was teaching me. We really needed another 2 or 3 days because by the end is when the girls started opening up. It was a lot of fun, just to hang out with them, love on them and be real (plus pillow fight). The entire weekend God helped me to focus on someone else for once, rather than myself. He helped me to focus on the future of these girls lives and His life in them. I broke down as soon as I got in my car to drive home, though. For the first time in my life I literally signed that I am going to wait. I've already given it to God, but it's only been months. Just to sign felt so good. I signed at the top between the E and the L (truE Love). Still, I felt so inadequate. Who am I to be teaching girls about purity? I realized the gift that the girls have, not just gift but giftS. The gift of the relationship they have with their Savior if they choose to stay close to Him. And then within that all the things He desires to give them in their future. They can hang onto all of it using the strength given to them by Christ living within them. And let it blossom like a rose rather than a train wreck. I've chosen to walk the narrow road finally; my heart can't take any other way. I realized just being on this trip that things I have wanted, God is giving me. Two verses ringing true are "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well" (Matthew 6:33) and "Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart" (Psalm 37:4). I loved just being with my friend Sara and her friend, Shanna in the car ride. We talked about God and what's going on in our lives, our struggles, but we also talked about silly stuff and listen to music. It's really amazing of what comes forth when two people are focused on Christ. I've wanted to be able to work with youth, and now God is allowing me to. I'm building friendships that I have wanted. I'm meeting people with the same life goal, which is to glorify our Savior. This is cheesy, but it gives you warm fuzzies. It's constant joy. It's continuous love. I'm not tense. I'm not looking over my shoulder. I'm not scared. I'm not sad. The most important relationship I have been able to start rebuilding through Christ is with my mom. It's like we're close again. I can finally be real because I'm not trying to hide. I can finally use the support I have always had in her, but never chosen to use. I can get back to cracking up with her. I can love her and be loved. True Love does wait.

Sorry if this is confusing. My thoughts were a little jumbled. I wanted to express what I felt while I was driving home yesterday, but it's not comprehendable really.