He'll come along, and I'm thrilled. Hehe!!!

When I had a boyfriend it was easy to tell a guy no I wouldn't go out with him. All I had to say was I have a boyfriend. Obviously. But now I don't have a boyfriend, and even though it would be easy to say "I have a boyfriend," that would be a lie. And unfortunately, a lie is a lie is a lie. And I don't want that. It's a sin.

But it's not that hard for me to say no. Actually, it's not hard at all. I just say no. I've prayed and prayed and prayed for my heart to just be changed from thinking I need a boyfriend and just any ol' hot guy. But I have no desire to be dating anyone. And it's wonderful. Seriously, I'm just like uck. I only have a desire for one, right man to come into my life. God's changing my dreams to God-size dreams, and I'm lovin' it. Absolutely, positively lovin' it.

I need and want something more than a church-going, Bible-readin', prayin' believer. There's going to be a radical guy. I just know it. I just gotta wait.