i don't even know

the one person that i know how to talk to isn't even available in my life anymore.

and i guess there is a reason for that. because in any time of need i would run to him because he understood, was responsive, protective and loving.

now the only place to run is Jesus Christ, which He is the same and more.

but i still don't know what to do. i can't run, which is all i want to do. physically and emotionally. run. as fast and as far as i can.