he's always been a liar, and he will forever be a liar.

we are bombarded with lies, girls. they are everywhere. any where we turn. lies.

lies.
lies.
lies.

John 8:44 tells us, "The devil... was a murderer from the beginning, and has nothing to do with the truth, because there is no truth in him... For he is a liar and the father of lies."

from the beginning of time, as women, we have been believing Satan's lies. when will we stop? when will we start believing our faithful Father?

girls believe lies about love. girls believe lies about trust. we believe lies that cause us to guard our hearts and build walls between us and people. between us and our Heavenly Father. as girls we are sensitive. the world is so fallen and so broken up... lies are easy to believe. we relate everything we have learned from media, from our families, from our friends, from our church... to God. we don't find out for ourselves who He really is.

Satan tells us that everyone leaves. i can't even count the years i have believed that one. i didn't even feel myself believing that, but my actions revealed it. God says "I will never leave you or forsake you." Read about his faithfulness throughout the entire Bible. Remember for yourself, His faithfulness in your own life. He does not leave... through sin, through running, through kicking and screaming, through our unfaithfulness. He stays. He holds onto us. He loves us.

i thought for so long that i had to take care of myself. i had to make sure i was making enough money. i had to do this or do that. i was number 1. i wouldn't let anyone help me. but He says, "Be still and know that I am God." He takes care of the birds of the air. He surely will always provide more than we need. I've honestly been down to pennies, and He has provided. i have been down to my last rope, and He has brought me out.

one of the hardest things for me... wearing my heart on my sleeve. i wore it there for so long. slowly but surely i became so hardened because my heart had been crushed so many times, often by the same people. i built up a wall... not allowing love in... and definitely not allowing love to flow out. but the Bible says, "They will know we are Christians by our love." we are free to love because Christ loves us. we are free to love because He is the protector of our hearts. we are free. we can wear our heart on our sleeve, and we will be okay. even if our heart breaks over or for someone... God heals and binds up!

we have to stop believing our enemy's lies. they are keeping us from deeper intimacy with our Jesus, and the lies are keeping us from witnessing with love. God calls us to love without return. He calls us to love everyone. He calls us to love those who have hurt us. He calls us to love. trust Him alone, and you can wear your heart on your sleeve.

waiting...

steadfastness that is holding on,
patience that is holding back,
expectancy that is holding the face up,
obedience that is holding one's self in readiness to go or do,
listening that is holding quiet and still so as to hear.

how long Lord, must i wait?

...never mind, child. trust Me.

bffs.

these are the kind of friends i have.
best friends.
why am i so blessed?
i want to be that kind of friend back. always.
i could barely read this through my wet eyes.
she had no idea how much i needed this.
but God did. He always knows.
perfect timing.
satan has been attacking everything about me.
everything in me. everything out of me.
i have felt like he's running ramped.

"I was looking through my journal today from about 6 months ago. I found this pr and wanted to pr it over you.
Let Holly rise today through Your strength to pilot her, Your might to uphold her, Your wisdom to guide her, Your eyes to look before her, Your ears to hear her, Your Word to speak FOR her, Your hand to guard her, You in her, You before her, You behind her, You with her, You beneath her, You above her, You on her left, You on her right, You when she lies down, You when she sits down, You when she arises. You in the heart of everyone who thinks of her, You in the mouth of everyone who speaks of her, You in every eye that sees her, You in every ear that hears her, Let her arise today, through a mighty stength, the nvocation of the trinity.
--sara"