Grace

I read a book called "Crazy Love" months and months ago. I asked God what Crazy Love was going to look like for me. He has revealed to me so ways, but just today He spoke to me on grace. "Crazy Love" in nutshell was a lot about just pouring out your life radically and giving freely. Not living a lukewarm life, and beginning living outside of this structured Christianity we've grown up with. For months He had been speaking to me about Love because I had never really felt it or gave it. Lately, He's been speaking to me about Love through Grace. I'm 25, and if you could understand how much grace a girl this young has been given you'd probably faint. I pray that I never forget the life I had before God really got a hold of me. We've all been given grace through our Beloved Jesus' death, but I so desperately want to give grace to the level or extend that I have been given it. I know someone who is in serious need of grace right now. But I believe the grace given will help to change me and help me to forgive. Why withhold grace when my sins against God are just as great as this person's sins against me? If you deny grace to people, then you have yet to really understand the concept of grace and what you've been given no matter how righteous you may seem on the outside. My biggest fear in forgiveness and giving grace is the fact that I know at least right now, this person isn't sincere. But then I'm taking God's rightful place on the throne of my own heart. His word says we will be judged by the same cup we've measured out for other people. Therefore, I've been begging Him to help me pour out a whole lot of grace because I've been given a life time's worth of grace if there was such a thing. He wants me to just obey His word, and if they are being artificial or deceitful--God will take care of that. It's not my position. My position is to be humbled before my God and even my enemies.