"Treat him like a substance"

"When you develop an addictive behavior, you often don't even realize it. You justify its presence in your life with makeshift rationalizations."

For so long I didn't even recognize the void in my life. I didn't think I had any addictions. I didn't need any type of substance, but I did desperately think I needed a relationship. I had a hole in my heart, and I thought my relationship would satisfy it. Now my heart is whole because I found the One who does satisfy it.

I was clinging desperately to this relationship for my confidence, security, and comfort. I didn't even realize it. I didn't realize what kind of hinderance I was putting on the relationship. A mere human can not fill a God size hole; he can't take on responsibility that is not his. I had no faith that God would and could fill me. And all the while, if I would have trusted I could have been saved from heartbreak and spared a friendship.

I can not look to anyone except Christ to fulfill my deepest needs. I can not cling desperately to relationships for my confidence or security. And my reason for living is not in my future marriage but in my relationship with Jesus Christ.