Missions. I've realized that nothing else is going on in our world except for God's unstoppable plan. I've been given a chance to die. Die to the world. Die to my selfish dreams. Die to earthly treasures. Die to my plans and my ideas. But He's given me life and with a new life comes death of the old. A chance to live for Heaven, live for His dreams, live for His treasures... and live His plan for my life.

He has hung onto me so tightly. When I look back I ask, "Jesus, why didn't you just give up a long time ago?" His love for me is incomprehensible. There are so many people who are searching and wondering and needing a Savior. Yet He has revealed Himself to me.

... He chose me.

I can never get away from that truth. No matter how far I run or even where I try to hide. It doesn't matter if I say no for two years, two million times. His plan won't be stopped. So my relentless God pursuing me... what is it that He's asking of me? Love and obedience. They go hand in hand.

Right now obedience for me is saying Yes, God. It's saying here I am... send me! My heart is stirred by international missions. It beats for the unreached. It's not that my heart isn't scared or even confused about how it's ever going to work or when or where... I have questions. I cry out of fear. I worry. But He gives me new strength... holding me up with His nail-scared hands... leading me on the path He has chosen. The path that leads to love. To joy. To fulfillment. To adventure. To life. To Him.

He's said, "My beloved, look what You have in Me. I want you to go... share life. Share my life. I've given you life... pour yours out. And let me love you, princess. Let me love you, so you can love others."