honesty-always the best policy
how honest are we with one another? and is this one of satan's tactics to keep us from being liberated? God can't use us as He would like if we aren't honest with one another. and if we aren't even being honest with ourselves.
i've been trying to figure out lately why God would put so many non-Christians in my life. and what's the reason so many of my friends and family are non-Christians, or why have so many of those people around me lost sight of our Goal in life. how do i get through to some of these people i love? what do i say to them? what do i do for them?
and my greatest question "why me?"
i am suppose to offer up my life and my shame that others might truly see who Christ is in my life. can they really see who Christ is in my life if they don't know what He saved me from?....
there's more to my life than "a good girl who goes to church... shh! a girl with virgin ears... a nice girl..." how does an attempting, trying, struggling holy life relate to the world? it doesn't so much as an attempting holy life with an honest past that looks exactly like the world. a open, honest past gives hope to those who are looking for a way out of their depressing life. it's Jesus Christ who saves us from it.
i've tried to keep my past just that--the past. but what good is it if i don't share it? yes, i've learned from my past, but can others if it's hidden? my past is dark and heartbreaking but God wants to use it for good, but i have to give it up. i've kept it swept under the rug because i didn't think i wanted anyone to know me for who i really was. i wanted people to hold me up on a pedestal thinking i've only made a few little mistakes. you know the cookie jar kind. but i've allowed my selfish pride to get in the way of God's plan. and is that anything short of who satan is?....
within the past couple of years i've had many people ask for me to share my testimony (to crowds that i think are large, which is scary in and of itself). and i have had many opportunities to work with youth. opportunities kept popping up, but i'd never get honest so i'd lose them. i love working with youth, and i have been praying about it for a while. i'm finally at a church that i feel extremely comfortable in. i feel like i am suppose to be there. but i don't feel so comfy cozy about giving my testimony although i feel called to do so. my boyfriend randomly told me the other day i should. then mrs. s. told me that i have something to give to the youth, and i could probably do a lot of good by talking to this one particular girl in the youth. and the funny thing is... mrs. s. doesn't know anything about me. at Bible study the other night we were talking about what our church is missing and it's openness and honesty with one another about our lives and our struggles. which in the back of my heart i have known this about my own life, but God is making it a reality i am not able to ignore. i've learned with God you can only suppress things for so long.
today in my quiet time i was just reading some things about satan and his tactics. but today i read in Revelation 12:11 "They overcame him [satan] by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony." i just stopped. and i was like mine? i need to give mine? i have to give mine.
Jesus gave us one another that we might share life together. the Life that is about Him.
i've been trying to figure out lately why God would put so many non-Christians in my life. and what's the reason so many of my friends and family are non-Christians, or why have so many of those people around me lost sight of our Goal in life. how do i get through to some of these people i love? what do i say to them? what do i do for them?
and my greatest question "why me?"
i am suppose to offer up my life and my shame that others might truly see who Christ is in my life. can they really see who Christ is in my life if they don't know what He saved me from?....
there's more to my life than "a good girl who goes to church... shh! a girl with virgin ears... a nice girl..." how does an attempting, trying, struggling holy life relate to the world? it doesn't so much as an attempting holy life with an honest past that looks exactly like the world. a open, honest past gives hope to those who are looking for a way out of their depressing life. it's Jesus Christ who saves us from it.
i've tried to keep my past just that--the past. but what good is it if i don't share it? yes, i've learned from my past, but can others if it's hidden? my past is dark and heartbreaking but God wants to use it for good, but i have to give it up. i've kept it swept under the rug because i didn't think i wanted anyone to know me for who i really was. i wanted people to hold me up on a pedestal thinking i've only made a few little mistakes. you know the cookie jar kind. but i've allowed my selfish pride to get in the way of God's plan. and is that anything short of who satan is?....
within the past couple of years i've had many people ask for me to share my testimony (to crowds that i think are large, which is scary in and of itself). and i have had many opportunities to work with youth. opportunities kept popping up, but i'd never get honest so i'd lose them. i love working with youth, and i have been praying about it for a while. i'm finally at a church that i feel extremely comfortable in. i feel like i am suppose to be there. but i don't feel so comfy cozy about giving my testimony although i feel called to do so. my boyfriend randomly told me the other day i should. then mrs. s. told me that i have something to give to the youth, and i could probably do a lot of good by talking to this one particular girl in the youth. and the funny thing is... mrs. s. doesn't know anything about me. at Bible study the other night we were talking about what our church is missing and it's openness and honesty with one another about our lives and our struggles. which in the back of my heart i have known this about my own life, but God is making it a reality i am not able to ignore. i've learned with God you can only suppress things for so long.
today in my quiet time i was just reading some things about satan and his tactics. but today i read in Revelation 12:11 "They overcame him [satan] by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony." i just stopped. and i was like mine? i need to give mine? i have to give mine.
Jesus gave us one another that we might share life together. the Life that is about Him.
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