completeness

I am so incredibly happy with life. For the first time ever I really do feel complete. I feel as though I'm finally, truly heading in the right direction. And my life isn't perfect, but when I lay down at night all I feel is peace. The major decisions that I have been making lately are right because they are the one's God has been waiting on me to choose. He's righting my wrongs by writing over them with His Name and Blood. I've been back and forth, good and bad so many times. But this time there is a change in the wind. I can feel it, and it's unexplainable. It's just something I know. There is light at the end of the tunnel. My heart was the most empty it's ever been, and now it feels the fullest it's ever felt. I've never let go or said no to my fleshy desires. But now I have, and am, and I know I can. There is such a difference between happiness and joy. I have had happy moments, but they are fleeting. Now at any moment I can say God? And everything I know is going to be okay. God's thoughts are so drastically different from my own. I want to think, talk, walk and love like Christ. I might then start to accept what He has for me quicker, rather than wrestling first. I want the attitude, I need the attitude of Christ. I wish those I love could understand, even if just a little, this concept of God. The fact that everything they desire, want and need is solely in Him. It breaks my heart, and I do ache for a couple of select people in my life. I just want them to say yes. We all run until we can't run any further, so why not stop now and saves ourselves from the pain?

"It is a safe thing to trust Him to fulfill the desires which He creates." --Amy Carmichael