choosing God's story for us

"The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another; and his humblest hour is when he compares the volume it is with what he vowed to make it."

Why do we so often do this? And over and over again at that! I have chosen God's story because I am tired of comparing the life that I could have been living to the one I was living. As hard as it is at moments to not get ahead of God and not start writing our own story, it's not as hard as living with consequences.

I'm almost 22 and finally learning from my mistakes.