25

I have held on so tight to my plans. I was so scared to trust what God had planned.

I'm 25 and not where I thought I would be just a few years ago when I wrote on my birthday. Just a couple months ago I let go of a lot of things. I let go of the past. My hurt. John. My plans. My insecurities. I wasn't the person God or I desired me to be. It kills you when you're hurting people you love. It's ugliness.

Three years ago God was working on facets of my life that needed to be changed. I prayed forever that He would begin working on the depths of my heart. I prayed that He would help me to begin to really and truly learn to love. He's faithful to answer. It took a heart-wrenching break up to begin the healing process though.

He's working in me. He's uprooting all that doesn't belong in a heart that is His. He's preparing me for tomorrow. For September. For next year. For 2 years later. He's preparing me for what He has for me because He never lets go.